Heck of a forum you got here! I'm probably asking for it, but I need some help, motivation. I just can't seem to flick the switch. My marriage isn't really suffering from this, but I am
I'm 33, 5'3 and 200 lbs.
I don't eat enormous calories. I eat alot of vegetarian, vegetable and starch based foods like steamed veggies and rice or cous-cous, etc.
Doctor says (and I know) that I need to excersise...when? I'm an RN and I work 12 hour nights, so i get home at 8am go to bed up at 4 shower dinner out the door at 6 to be at work at 7. On my days off there's only so much time to do all the things I have to get done to run a normal household.
For a while hubby and I were walking 12+ miles a day, every day for weeks on end (this was before I was an RN). and I never saw ONE. POUND. GONE.
We never eat fast food...maybe subway without mayo or cheese but I don't even know the last time I had french fries or a hamburger. I don't drink sodas....all of the BINGO bad foods for you I really don't eat. Again, lotsa veggies and low-fat low calorie stuff but I'm not trying to restrict myself, I don't mind the taste of these things. Thankfully I have a trader joe's nearby so I can get tasty low fat low calorie non processed foods for relatively cheaply.
I don't know what to do with myself anymore. When my husband and I started dating I was 21 and wore maybe a size 12 or so, no more than 140 lbs. NOw I'm 200lbs (I starve for a few days if I get above 200 because I feel once I Get above it I'll never get below it) and a size 16 and that's starting to feel tight.
This is stupid but I can't even do an EATING DISORDER right for god's sake. I think bulimia is a waste of money and I love eating too much to be anorexic.
I do sometimes have eating binges where I will just stuff myself stupid for no reason...boredom mostly.
Where do I even start? I feel sometimes like I make excuses for not being more active but then I realize that I really do not have the time to be more active. Plus I'm walking/running around 12+ hours a night at the hospital, and I know that doesn't "count" but surely it "counts" more than if I had a sedentary office job, right?
I'm so depressed about it. I've talked to my Doctor. He doesn't listen, says "exercise for 6 months then we'll talk"
when I tell him I don't have time to exercise he gives me this 'Oh well I'm a doctor and *I* have time to exercise" big deal, he also doesn't have to work the hours I do, HAVE to work, you know?
I have big boobs and it hurts to do any kind of running, and I've never been a runner. Can't find a 44DDD sports bra that even helps and I don't know......I feel like everyone tells me what I NEED to do but I haven't found anyone who can tell me what I SHOULD BE DOING to get to where I need to be....
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